If I get a Second chance

“When life gives us a 2^nd chance and we must make use of it, always”. This has been often told to us.

Often we postpone our long cherished dreams due to various reasons: lack of time, lack of money, or sometimes some other work takes preference. And often those dreams of ours remain stashed in some corner of our hearts, gathering dust. Often by the time we find time to fulfill those dreams or wishes of ours, either that time has passed away or we have lost interest in it.

Then we think, “If only life gives me a 2^nd chance, I would finish all my unfulfilled wishes/dreams”

Life, now-a-days are so uncertain and unpredictable that we feel life is too short to complete all our dreams, let alone dreams of people close to us and dependent on us. Sometimes while fulfilling their wishes, we sometimes tend to forget our dreams.

Each one of us has a long list of things to be done before life ends. Now-a-days it's called bucket-list. We write it down in our diary or in some corner of our heart/mind and forget about it.

Like others I too have a list of dos…

When I was a kid I was learning Bharatnatayam, as I always loved to dance. But due to some health issues I had to discontinue it. I always loved various kinds of dance forms, especially Salsa. It's the most romantic style of dance form. If I get a chance I would surely love to learn this dance form.

Since I was in 10^th standard I was name as “double battery”, as I started wearing spectacles by start of academic year. It's been nearly 20 years now since I have been wearing specs. Another wish is to get rid of specs by doing LASIK, so that I can enjoy life without seeing through glasses.

My Dad always wanted to buy diamond earrings for my Mom, but we were never that financially stable. When I finished my college I had told them, I’ll get Mom those earrings with my salary. But alas, I never earned that much so that I can fulfill my Dad’s wish. Even now, I wish, if I get a good job I’ll buy Mom her diamond earrings.

Another big dream of mine is to do something for kids who are differently abled. Being a mother to a cerebral palsy child, I have always faced many difficulties finding treatments for her. Given a chance would love to do something for such kids, so that parents won’t have to go in search of facilities for their kids, and would find all facilities/treatments everything under 1 roof.

These are some of my dreams or wishes, which has taken a backseat due to daily hustle bustle of day-to-day routine. Another wish is I would love to spend a couple of days away from this busy city life, in some peaceful, serene place where there would be nature, fresh air and no chaos or tension, just nature, me and my loved one…

These are some of my dreams which if given a chance I would surely love to fulfill and make my loved ones happy and enjoy life to fullest.

This post is a part of the #SecondChance activity at BlogAdda in association with MaxLife Insurance”.

2014 - A Retrospection

I know I am a bit tad late in posting about new year and the resolutions I made for this year… but like the year which went by, the initial days of this year too passed in a blur. It's 15^th of Jan and I don’t know how these days have flown by…

It's like, we are still thinking about what to do on Dec 31^st and it came and went too… I am still fiddling writing 2015 instead of 2014 in dairies and cheques.

2014 was a not such a great year for me. There had been many ups and downs, many highs and lows of my life. As someone had put it to me ‘2014 was a learning year. I learned a lot in those 12 months. I was a learner in 2014.’

I had waited for 2014 with great hopes and expectations. It came and went… many of hopes got squashed to pulp, many expectations dashed to ground. 2014 proved to be a year of learning, stumbling & falling on road blocks, getting up and dusting the dirt and moving on.

The quote “one’s real behavior is exposed in state of crisis” holds so true for me in the past year.

Yes, I came to know the real nature of many near and dear ones, whom I thought I know their real faces. Those rose tinted glasses took a long time to come off.

In this process I discovered my true self too, the true me, who had gone into hiding, trying to fulfill the duties of a wife, a mother and a daughter.

Though this change was not welcomed by everyone with good enthusiasm, I was termed selfish. Yes, I have changed, and I prefer to stay that way. I always gave preference to my dear ones, but now I prefer to think a little bit about me too, if that’s being selfish, I would love being called selfish. For these many years, I did what others wanted, lived like they wanted me to do. Even after 35 years if they are still not satisfied and constantly crib about how wrong I am, and what I didn’t or don’t do for them, then I have reached my limit and it's time to take back charge of my life.

So this year I have decided to dedicate some time and energy to myself.

• Will try to regain my health (which has already gone for a toss), by trying to maintain a good, healthy food habits
•  Renew some of my hobbies (1^st preference is to get back to reading)
•  Start blogging again and also regularly.
•  Trying new recipes atleast 1 every month if not every week.
•  Try to lose some of extra flab that has accumulated over so many years 
•  Atleast have a half hour daily as “Me” time, wherein no one can dare disturb me.

2014 taught me some life learning lessons which did hurt at beginning, but they made me strong. I wish to remain so. Hope 2015 proves to be a good and brings in good luck and results.